The purpose of life

I now wonder
what is the purpose of my life?

life is like a game of 4corners
during the school years,
friends, teachers, books and family make the 4corners (in decreasing order of importance?) ... and the day whizzes by as you race between them.

Then there is marriage
spouse and profession and kids and social circles scramble for attention. So grihast-ashrama (family life) consumes our thoughts and days

Suddenly the day you have been dreaming of arrives all too soon. And the kids leave home for marriage or study or work. Leaving a twosome at home.

Aaaaah! you scream. The house is large, persons only two, but you keep tripping over each other!
and then a vigour sets in...
to relearn each other
to explore new horizons
still the fact is, ... that we do most things
to please each other or
to irritate each other or
to impress each other

and suddenly the only pillar that mattered in life-game of 4corners goes away.
and I now wonder
what now is the purpose of my life?
everything has a reason they say, what then is the meaning or reason of this aloneness?
Have I a job that the Universe has marked for me?
That I am yet to discover?

I hope so. For every life must have a purpose.

we did not see it coming

the tests all show Normal
or nil
or none

no BP ... no sugar ... no cholesterol ... even the lipid profile - says nil and normal
he was not on any medication for any ailment. took the recommended 45 minute walks everyday. spent 20 minutes on the exercise-cycle 4 times a week. was a contented family man, happy to be professionally busy
yet he was snatched away from us at 63.with no time for even a goodbye.
under the very eyes of the cardiac specialist. on his way back from a busy day at court.
it is a massive cardiac arrest ma'am, they tell me. sorry.

what a fine way to go
they tell me
no pain
no suffering

perhaps the time of birth and death are predetermined?
what we do is to improve the quality of our life?
all our struggle, is to make the best use of the time given to us?

if our longevity is measured by the way we live our life
and not by the number of years we live
i could safely say
he lived to be 100

dealing with death

Om purnam adah purnam idam, purnat purnam udachyate
purnasya purnam adaaya purnam eva avashishyate
om shanti shanti shantihi

I believe in the advaita philosophy
The soul in this human body, is just as complete as That Complete One. And when the journey in this physical body is done with, this complete soul moves on to meet the Complete One and become complete again.

He has lived his life. Worked with single minded devotion to achieve in his chosen profession
been a great dad, a supportive brother, and a true friend to many
he has cherished me, and pushed me towards my dreams

he was raju, he was KLN, he was Rao, he was senior, he was Sir, he was Gurugalu, he was appa, and he was my (p)

His journey on earth in this form is done with. his purpose is fulfilled.

I should let him go
shouldn't I?

My mind plays tricks on me.
its a month now
i still relive only the last moments
i want to remember him for all the wonderful moments of living
of life
so help me god